I cannot for the life of me believe that today is Dec. 1st! There is a lot to look forward to this month, but it will also be a very overwhelming month for me.
First of all, I have to say that I'm glad that November is over. It was a rough month in every sense. My health, my marriage, our finances, our kids. Even just this last week I was beginning to wonder if there's an age limit to how old the kid(s) can be to drop them off at a fire station or hospital! Thursday was probably the most challenging day with my kids. As a mother, I have learned how to wash my face, brush my teeth, brush my hair and go to the bathroom. If I have time I may try and get some makeup on, and if I'm really lucky, I can even change my clothes in those 5 minutes AND put on deoderant! But on Thursday, during those five minutes, my children became baby terrorists. They dumped out a bag of brown sugar on my couch and peed on it, dumped out a full 5lbs. bag of white sugar in the corner (on the carpet), chewed open a box of instant mashed potatoes and dumped that throughout the living room and on the love seat, spilled iced tea in the kitchen, peed in the kitchen, knocked over all my clean laundry, got naked, and played in my yarn. FIVE MINUTES. That's all it took, cinco minutos. Plus they played with my phone, which I have a lock on so the kids can't play on it, but they tried to unlock it so many times that it wouldn't let me try unlocking it again for an hour. I couldn't call Sean and tell him I'm losing my mind, I couldn't call a friend to come help me clean up, I couldn't call my mom for advice. It was a living hell. I sobbed I was so mad. Luckily there's this thing called FB chat so I could msg Sean to ask him to ask our friend to come check in on me and help me. The first thing that had to be done was get the kids under control. Got them cleaned up, dressed, fed, then put in their room. But not put in their room until after my friend and I took all the toys, books, pillows, blankets and sheets out. Basically it was a jail cell for a day long time out since I had to clean everyhing. This may sound extreme, but the kids had been testing my limits with things like this all week, but Thursday was different. They wouldn't listen. Once they were settled in their room for the day long time out, I got to cleaning with my life-saver of a friend. It was exhausting work, even with help. So much vacuuming, laundry, uggh. I am unsure of what's gotten into them to make them want to cause so much trouble. I posted on FB about how they were acting. Some responses were funny ("give them benadryl!!", a few were wondering what the harm of little boys peeing on the floor was to anyone, yada yada yada. But what it boils down to is that I am their mother, I don't abuse them, neglect them, so if a day long time out is all the get for the amount of stress and number of panic attacks this mess caused me is nothing! So for that alone, I am ready for November to be done.
But December is a whole new beast. Besides the normal appts I have, we have St. Nick's, Xmas Eve, Xmas Day, Kieran's 5th bday is the 26th-yes, the day after Xmas. Then the 30th is Sean's and my 6th year wedding anniversary. Plus this coming week 2 of my greatest friends are coming out here to visit. And to top it all off, NYE. It's a lot. I'm no fortune teller, but I see some xanax in my future. I am not a grinch, but when you pile all these things up it gets beyond overwhelming! Especially for someone with anxiety/panic disorder, lol.
So really, I just wanted to bitch about what happened Thursday. I feel like if I talk about it, maybe the memory will be magically removed from my head. ;D
I am excited for this month because after this month, I have a whole new year to start fresh, and lordie do I need that!
So to start out Dec, I awoke with swollen lymph nodes, a cold, and side effects from a med. but I am going to make the best of today, starting with watching "Rock of Ages" with my husbie and crochet while drinking my icy cold Diet Coke.
Happy Saturday y'all! Hope you are as lucky as I am to start the day by relaxing, (even if I'm only doing that cause I'm sick)!!
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